Season of Illusion

So last night was a blast. ♥

Myself, Chris and his friend Carrie went to the Abbey in West Hollywood. It was the second time that I went, and I had a blast. Before we ended up at the Abbey, we went to some dive bar that was right around the corner, and it was a lot of fun as well.

I met someone named Patrick last night. Absolutely stunning. I don’t know how I could really describe him. He had the most perfect, defined face. The most lucious lips that I saw that night, and eyes to die for. He caught me everytime I would look over to check him out, it was rather quite embarrasing. However, he was “talking” to Chris’ friend Rex, I guess. Who is rather quite hideous. Damn, I wish I would’ve givin him my number. ♥

I love being 21, and being able to check out all of these new places that I’ve never been. So many fresh faces, and real people. None of those Jeffree Star/Chris Crocker/Internet Celebrity stupid scene kids (at least from what I noticed.) there, which was really really nice! Instead, you get beautiful, attractive, REAL men.

It’s kind of hard for me to go out and meet other men because sometimes I am still so insecure about myself. I know that I’ve lost a lot of weight, and I know I am a lot more attractive than I was last year, but I just know I want to look and feel better before I go out and meet someone. So far, everything that I’ve planned this year is going a lot better than expected. I need to tone myself, change the hair a little bit, and update the wardrobe, and I’ll be feelin’ so fresh.

In a few more months, I know my life is going to change dramatically.

Posted 11/01/2009