I’m 80% Sure…

That tomorrow is going to be a bust, and I know that I’m going to be the one down in the dumps tomorrow. I wish I had a little bit more self control with myself. I know everyone tells me differently, and to stop doubting myself, but I can’t. I just need to learn to feel comfortable with myself, instead of killing myself every single day at the gym. I know I really should stop trying to make everyone else happy, and start making myself happy for once. I dunno, I’m just really upset today, a lot has been going on, and it’s a lot for me to deal with right now.

I strive for perfection, but I lack self control most of the time.

I hate the fact that I always assume the worst out of everything. Tomorrow hasn’t even started, but I’m already doubting it. I guess I’m just afraid of rejection, and I know I’m not the only one out there. I’m scared, nervous, anxious… I never really used to be like this, but my trust has been completely battered. I blame you Collin for this, I blame you.

-sigh-

Posted 27/02/2009